Updated: Apr 8
April 2017 Week 8
Luckily for me I’ve had no morning sickness and thank the lord for this as I don’t know how I would have coped. Every pregnant woman I’ve spoken to that has had morning sickness has said it was awful. However, I have had terrible spouts of nausea along with a bitter taste in my mouth making me constantly wanting to eat! eat! eat! I’m always thinking something terrible might go wrong as well. I feel like my anxiety is taking over me. As much as I want to enjoy this experience I can’t because I constantly worry. My counsellor sets me tasks to complete every week as well as providing me with coping mechanisms which I find hard to do as I worry all the time. Instead is read about coping with anxiety because completing tasks is not something, I’m in the right frame of mind to do.
I visited the hospital again for another scan I was feeling overly anxious my husband told me to try and not worry we have God on our side, but I was scared shitless. I kept thinking something was wrong the doctor would tell me bad news. I really tried to think positive, but it wasn’t working. I got to hear my twins’ heartbeats I cannot begin to tell you how relieved I was when the doctor said everything was OK with both babies. I felt like a huge weight had lifted off my shoulders and thanked God right there and then. My husband was so excited to hear this as well as see them on the scan. I was happy but couldn’t enjoy this experience just like he was – my anxiety was taking over. One twin measured bigger than the other on the scan, but the doctor said it’s nothing to worry about – clearly, we know who is eating all the food. I have named them twin A and B for now no official names as of yet I don’t even know the genders.